amaxophobia

i got into an accident today when i was on my way back from a hangout with my friends, it was raining and the road was slippery and i was driving fast and suddenly there was traffic in front on the car in front of me did an emergency brake so i was trying to hit the brake but my car still wouldn't stop and i almost hit the car in front and my reflex got me turning the steering wheel to the left to avoid hitting the car and i was panicking and did not give any signals nor do i looked sideways before turning and i accidentally hit a motorbike rider

the rider was okay, had only very minor scratches on his motorbike and did not injure himself, my car had lots of scratches

reminds me of the time when i just got my drivers' license and got arrested by the police at a highway because i almost hit a vip car that was being escorted by policemen

my trauma started from that point in time and i think it got worsen today