frail

nobody has ever told me that taking care of myself would be this difficult, no wonder when you're sick, you would've expect other people to take care of your needs,

taking care of myself while feeling utterly, helplessly weak, 

but i still managed, to get out from bed, even when i took one whole day, i still went to take a shower, not a bath, just water running down my weak body, my weak mind, and i sat there in the tub for an hour, the water ran down for an hour long.

then, i still managed to get up and took the pills, i forced myself to eat even when i didn't want to, i was hungry but i wasn't capable of eating, i did not have the energy

and i tucked myself to bed

it is hard to take care of myself

but i did

and that is all that matters