i lost a friend

i lost a friend somewhere in the bitterness of my own self, i wish i hadn't ended the friendship the way it did, i wish i could tell you what happened to me the past couple of weeks

i lost a friend, again in the middle of searching my own self, i did not succeed the latter, i miss telling you what im up to today, i miss talking about weird and crazy stuff, i miss all of our 3 am deep conversations, i miss your reassurance

12 hours apart, i live in the future while you, in the past, my past.

i lost a friend,

and i miss them.